Al‑Anon ‘kicked in’ when I needed it most

I’ve been a grateful member of Al‑Anon for 13 years. My life has certainly improved. I am focusing on myself and doing things for myself. My spouse is drinking less and we are kinder to each other. But life changes quickly!

Twice this week, my spouse has come home drunk. Last night, around 10:30, I was standing in the driveway with my dog, when a car came around the corner very fast. It was my husband. He flew into the driveway and into the garage, hitting the back wall, and putting a big hole in it. I am grateful that he didn’t go through the wall.

As he pulled himself out of the car, I suddenly felt myself taking two steps backward in my serenity. I was so angry that I wanted to lash out and scream at him. Thankfully Al‑Anon kicked in, and I remembered that I cannot talk or reason with someone who has had too much to drink. I shook my head and walked into the house. I sat in my bedroom and rehearsed all the words I would say to him in the morning—and they weren’t pretty. I was so angry that I had a very restless night.

In the morning, while waiting for him to get out of bed, I decided to read my latest Forum. Somewhere between the pages, I found myself calming down. I continued reading until I could feel my serenity restored. I realized my angry words would not accomplish anything, but my Higher Power could. I prayed to my God and I kept on reading my Al‑Anon books.

My punishing words went out the window and I concentrated on myself. I knew I needed to “Let Go and Let God” in order to handle this situation. When my husband finally came downstairs, I told him that I cared about him, but he needed to get help. Then I found a meeting to attend. I am so thankful for all the tools that Al‑Anon has provided for me.

By Gladys O., Ohio
The Forum, July 2014