As the “Just for Today” bookmark (M-12) says, “Most folks are as happy as they make up their minds to be.” I now believe this statement to be true. For many years, however, I was only as happy as the situation was that day.
In my early recovery, “pretending” was one of my biggest problems. I was so lost in denial that I didn’t even know that pretending was denial’s big sister.
My first commitment to the program was a case of God doing for me what I couldn’t do for myself. In turn, it has led me to all the commitments I have made over the years.
Trusting in God has often taken me to places I would not have taken myself. Let me tell you of one example. I was writing a story on the topic of enabling; only I didn’t think I knew much about it. I went on-line and searched for content and definitions on enabling. I was surprised to learn not much information existed, but I did find Al‑Anon under resources. As I read from the Web site information, I discovered an office was located about three miles away from my new home. I looked up the hours and found there was a weekly meeting at 6 PM. I decided I would stop by after work, see what I could learn from the discussion, and ask someone for some information on enabling.